Trashed & Scattered

Ready to hear about my shitty luck?

for the past month n two weeks I’ve been chilling with the same people everyday. at first it started out as us all being friends, fucking shit up, getting drunk, smoking weed, offroading, and having the times of our lives. so many inside jokes were made and there was never a dull moment.
well you see one of the two bestfriends is this guy I’ve been obsessed with and have liked for 5 years now. I wanted to be with him so bad. well guess what! MY CHILDHOOD DREAM CAME TRUE! Me and him started dating 4.18.13. it was the greatest thing ever n the group of three still remained! now Joe is the name of the guy I’m inlove with. remember that for I’m about to start using names. and mike is the other guy who is Joes bestfriend and practical bloodbrothers that were always together and would do anything for eachother.
okay so back to the story. everything was fucking perfect. the cops got involved with our group a lot but other then those misshaps we were amazing.
even dating him now we chilled with Mike everyday, we couldn’t just leave our brother hanging!
then……..shit started getting bad…….
Joe lost his job n started getting really stressed out and I could tell his finacial situation was killing him. well now a little back story! Joes got this ugly ass ex girlfriend who stalks his every move n would do anything for him.
well you see, on 5.18.13, yes our one fucking month aniversarry, he lied and said he was going to his grandmas and he’ll be back later. I didn’t think anything of it! I hugged him quickly, n I didn’t even tell him I loved him like I usually do, cause I really do, I have for years! he’s my fucking dream guy! my perfect man.
well anyway. that day. he left. and NEVER CAME BACK! He stopped answering my texts, ignored my calls, ignored mikes texts and calls, ignored every other one of our friends stuff to. we all started freaking out thinking he got into an accident because his car doesn’t have breaks BUTNO he was at his ugly ass ex girlfriends house.
that’s how it ended.
that’s how I’m single.
I haven’t gotten contact from him since. he’s using her for a place to live and money because I couldn’t do as much as she can finacially being tht I’m only 18 and she’s 22.
I’m a wreck. he’s been my close friends for years upon years! hell he’s even the guy my older sister went to prom with! I can’t even begin to describe how badley I’m heartbroken.
to finally get what you’ve wanted after 5years of wanting it then to just have it ripped away is the worst feeling in the world.
And although I wakeup crying every morning, and although I miss him terribly, I’m just going to wait till he gets a job and leaves her ass. because he hates her. and its kind of funny she was his last resort.
so now its down to me and Mike.. the memories arnt the same and the inside jokes make us cry.
but uno what. in that month, I got enough to last me a lifetime.
Joe if you see this : I understand why you went back to her, and I love you so much and I have for years and every other relationship I’ve been in I was hoping itwas you and I hope we see eachother again in the future.
-end of story-